Allergic to Love

I'm taking, taking all of my time
I'm dodging words, but she's saying the right lines
She made me, made me oh so crazy
But this time I feel like I'm doing something right

It made me sick to think about
Everything you put me through and how you left without
Saying goodbye, and if it's really over now
Then you can walk away and it would be the last time

This is the end
Of you and me
And everything I used to be
Back then it meant something
But you're living a lie, you just can't hide from me

You had me hanging on your last word
And now I'm feeling a little less than trusting
You had me wishing we were something
But left me here with a whole lot of nothing now

Love is a luxury
She said "I'd rather be in love than dead"
But now it's her, oh God now it's her
She's the type of girl who makes love hers

Love,
Dels

It's Out There

"Look.. boyfriends? They're everywhere. Seriously. Take your pick. But dresses? And the perfect one at that? They don't come easy babe. Get it. Seriously. Before that bitch does." - (paraphrased from Shereen Fekri)

"Even if your hands are shaking
And your faith is broken
Even as the eyes are closing
Do it with a heart wide open
Say what you need to say" - (directly quoted from John Mayer)

"Ah Jon.. I'm really sad."
"Why?"
"I'm not too sure..."
"It'll be okay," he pats my shoulder. "I'm performing now". - (adapted from an old friend during the barbecue right before he went on stage)

Love,
Dels

You Too

Homework: (in no particular order)

1) Save the whales
2) Save the pandas
3) Study feminism
4) Banish capital punishment (only because you support it you BLAH!)
5) Eat locally grown food
6) Legalize marijuana for medical reasons

It's been pretty busy around here. How're you doing?


Love,
Dels

Sit Down and Smoke Up

I never thought I'd die alone
I laughed the loudest who'd have known
I traced the cord back to the wall
No wonder it was never plugged in at all
I took my time, I hurried up
The choice was mine, I didn't think enough
I'm too depressed, to go on
You'll be sorry when I'm gone

I never conquered, rarely came
16 just held such better days
Days when I still felt alive
We couldn't wait to get outside
The world was wide, too late to try
The tour was over we'd survived
I couldn't wait till I got home
To pass the time in my room alone

I never thought I'd die alone
Another six months I'll be unknown
Give all my things to all my friends
You'll never set foot in my room again
You'll close it off, board it up
Remember the time that I spilled the cup
Of apple juice in the hall
Please tell mom this is not her fault

I never conquered, rarely came
16 just held such better days
Days when I still felt alive
We couldn't wait to get outside
The world was wide, too late to try
The tour was over we'd survived
I couldn't wait till I got home
To pass the time in my room alone

I never conquered, rarely came
Tomorrow holds such better days
Days when I can still feel alive
When I can't wait to get outside
The world is wide, the time goes by
The tour is over, I'd survived
I can't wait till I get home
To pass the time in my room alone


Love,
Dels

Kicking & Laughing

Two Years Ago

.... sorry about that. I forgot.



J : I see you've let him go huh.
M: He needs to grow some balls.
J : .... I TOLD YOU THAT YEARS AGO.
M : ... Did you? Well I wish you tried harder to make me see that.
J : I told you straight to your face. When we were chilling in your room.
M : .. oh yes.

Let's see.. What can I tell you..

Well. I've been on break for 1.5 weeks now. My heart is breaking now that it's coming to an end. Raya was alright i suppose. Visited Adzraai's very sexy crib with Vanessa. You know when you see someone and you're just absolutely positive that you know him/her? And it's just so frustrating because you can't place who they are? I SWEAR I KNOW THAT GUY. IN FACT, I THINK WE'RE RELATED. which would be a shame if we were because he was very good looking.

The days have actually become quite short because I sleep early and wake up late. I should stop this cycle. It's bad. I've been going swimming again and it feels good. The swimming squad trains on Tuesdays at 11am. Ahhh. Feel good time like none other.

Everybody has been thrusting this whole He's Just Not That Into You and Ugly Truth in my face. Or shoving it down my throat more like. I mean. Okay I fully understand that in this day and age (speaking to my age group here), not everybody is ready for committment and in fact, more than one of us have a STRONG PHOBIA of it. But I simply refuse to accept that all men and women (uhh.. everybody basically) are as simple minded as the characters portrayed in those 2 incredibly Hollywood movies that serve as not much more than a outlet for giggles and sighs just because they have chosen people who were lucky enough to have two good looking people fall in love and reproduce them, giving them even better features. I mean. Sometimes there's a lot more to it, you know! And i mean. If you want to get all deep and literature and stuff, i'm sure those two movies provide a more in depth sense of society that is actually true but what they are doing is OVERGENERALIZING. AND I REFUSE to be overgeneralized into a group that actually gets what they want.

Love is a luxury - The Maine.

My hair is now dry and I will now hit the library to study barbie culture.



Love,
Dels

All For You My Apple Blossom

HELLO!

HELLO ALL!

my my, hasn't it been a while.

Okay so term 3 is over and it was, without a doubt, the busiest 1.5 months of MY LIFE. Research is a pain in the neck and so is paraphrasing and referencing and ARGH. But. It's over. And I have 2 weeks of break. *screams and jumps with joy*

Tomorrow will be my first Raya away from my family. And good food.

Wish I had pictures to put up now but they will come sooon i assure you.

I am utterly broke now that i've just gotten my Soundwave tickets for next year. I need to get a dress. AHH. Belt tightening phase.

Spring is here and the flowers are blooming. I'm so happy. Really.

Ah okay so I will blog again tonight. I'm sure. This is just to get me started again. blah.


Love,
Dels

24 Story Love Affair

You know that moment when you faint; one minute you're looking at his face, the next second you see his legs cause you're on the ground.

Well that's how the past 5 weeks have felt. And it's not over. But the worst is. Really. Why do we NEVER learn to do our work when we should and not leave it to the last day? You end up downing Mothers and Redbulls and it messes up your system so bad, you're just like, 'Who on earth made this drink!??!?!"

So people come and go but you know what stays? The music.

I need a little more help than a little bit,
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet,
Cause every time that I try, I get tongue tied,
I need a little good luck to get me by this time.

Spring is coming and THERE ARE FLORAL PATTERNS EVERYWHERE I'M IN HEAVEN SEND ME MONEY AND I'LL SEND YOU A CARD.

Here's a thought. If you want something, would you wait for it to come to you? Or would you go and get it?

Here's another thought. Once you've seen something, you can't unsee it. Once you've thought of something, you can't unthink it. If you want to not think of something, what do you do?



Love,
Dels